Better Safe..........

Those who care about you have an investment in your safety. They want you to stay around for selfish reasons. They may indeed love you, and the validity of that love is not in question. The fact is, if you are gone, it will affect them in a negative way. They will miss your physical presence, your conversations and your energy.

To that end, some will go overboard to keep you safe.

"Lock your doors, carry your mace, perhaps you need a martial arts class." You are trying to feel safe and secure and suddenly, the world is out to get you.

Your friends have a point. You should not go walking blindfolded in traffic. You probably don't want to put on your finest jewelry and take a midnight stroll. Normal sensible precautions are an act of love, both or yourself, and for those who care about you.

It is important to maintain a balance, between carelessness and complete paranoia.

When, for instance, you hear about a crime on the television news, there is a tendency to analyze your personal safety. You avoid certain areas, refrain from making unnecessary trips, perhaps take some sort of defensive measure. You check your doors twice before going to bed, you constantly dart your eyes when you are in a crowded area to scan for possible criminals. You send out a very dangerous vibration that you are not safe. Yet, you are no less safe than you were yesterday. Unless you decide that you are.

To walk around in fear, with defenses constantly up, adrenaline coursing through your veins, is actually a great way to invite the very attack you fear. Are you scared now? That is not our purpose. Our purpose is to help you love and protect yourself. Taking crazy chances also invites attack.

So what do you do now? You are doomed either way. No. It is all about the balance.

Treat yourself as you would treat a child going off to school. Dress correctly for the weather. Secure a safe mode of transportation, shield with visualization, prayer or energy, trust and let go. Know that you will be arriving home safely and that all is well.

You might give practical advice, "Stay on the sidewalk, don't talk to strangers" and so forth, but you would not arm the child with assault weapons and tell them to "shoot first, ask questions later".

Better safe than sorry; better reasonably safe than paranoid. You have a job to do while you are here on Earth, and we will keep you safe enough to do it. For, you see, we love you and have an investment in your safety. ~Silas

Jinnzania's side notes: as a child, I was adventurous, I climbed trees, rode my bike all over the neighborhood, without a doubt in my mind that I would make it home safely in the afternoon. If my friends and I saw anyone suspicious, we would turn our bikes around and go home. This was before video games and cell phones. Our heads were up, our senses were alert, we would see cars or "stranger danger" long before they would be a problem and avoid them.

Children and adults like this still exist. I believe that they are less likely to be victims of crime. They live life, not on a tiny screen, but with eyes open. It makes them less inviting to criminals, and they may not have so much as a tiny bottle of pepper spray.

They fully participate in life, and they can sense danger long before it happens.

This is not a gun control debate. We all must do what we need to do to feel reasonably safe. My concern is more personal. I was wondering how I became so vulnerable that I fell for the tactics of not one, but two sociopaths. As I look at who I was then, I was much more like the child with his face in a video game living in a pretend world and feeling shocked and victimized when the "real world" intrudes.

I was trying to fit my square soul into the round holes that family and society had created or me. That takes tremendous focus, and in video game terms costs you extra lives.

Lately, I've been trying to live in that place I was as a child. Adventurous, but aware. I talk to new people, but look and listen for attempts to manipulate and control me. I hear not only the words, but the intent behind them. I may not understand social interactions (due to Asperger's) but I am able to understand the psychology behind them. I didn't realize I was doing this, I thought people were just being obvious. It has been a big help in this area, and my own personal weapon against possible manipulation and attack.

I like to think of it as my superpower.

The Parasite

In most of the animal kingdom, there are those who live by sucking the life force of others. They cannot function on their own. Something in their DNA causes them to develop in such a way, that they must have others around them to take advantage of.

Some humans are like this, but for them it is a choice.

They fall into two categories: those who have not created their own life, and those who create an illusion of a satisfying life.

The first type will often appear exceptionally humble, often lacking self-esteem. They are sweet, often in pain, and they can be exhausting to be around. They do not take your energy because of a premeditated plan, it is just what they naturally do. That are like addicts. Eventually, the energy they get stops giving them a "high" and they simply do it to exist.

The other type knows exactly what they are doing. The worst among then seek out a certain type of host and lure them in with phony charm. They drain one victim dry, them move on to the next with no regard for the one who had been sustaining them. At the most extreme you would refer to his person as a sociopath.

We do not tell you this to frighten you. We simply want you to know. You have a right to keep your energy safe. If a person makes you feel drained of energy, or you feel "high" in their presence and empty when they leave, they might be parasitic. Monitor your feelings around them and control your interactions with them.

As like attracts like, in the end, a parasite will usually attract another parasite of the same or different type and they will drain each other until both are dry. They do have the choice to stop, but addictions are hard to break.

The most important thing we can tell you today, is that if you become the victim of a parasite, it is not a reflection of who you are. Even though a parasite may discard you and leave you to feel like you are nothing, you are someone. Usually you are someone with a big heart, who wants to help, or a trusting soul who, believes the words of a pathological liar.

The parasite has nothing, but that which he or she steals from others. At your very worst, you are better than that. People with loving hearts and gifts and talents are often the chosen hosts of parasites. So, hold up your head and be proud, and do not let it happen again. You deserve better. ~ Silas

Jinnzania's side notes: Throughout my life, I have been both the parasite (although not intentional) as well as the prey. Either way, it was about low self-esteem. I didn't think that I was enough and needed something more. As I moved away from the parasitic mode, and started to transition into a better way of living, I became an ideal host. Vulnerable enough to be easy prey, but with some energy to give. When I ceased to be a suitable host, I was abandoned, and left to die by one who would "love and cherish me forever" and "valued my friendship".

Fortunately, I have real friends with real healing gifts. They gently walked me out of my victim stage, and showed me how powerful I can be.

This past month, memories of past pain have resurfaced. I faced them. I may not have scored a resounding victory, but I stood my ground. Sometimes, that's all it takes <3

The "V" Word

Daily you are bombarded with the message that you are not safe. You must be on the defensive at all times. The world is not a kind and gentle place. You learn to run away before trying anything new. You go on the attack before analyzing the actual data to know what the danger is. Be safe, be prepared. The safest thing you could do is to leave your physical body and leave this Earth. Safety is safety. It will bring you a safe life, but not a satisfying one.

It is okay to be vulnerable at times. It does not make you weak.

If you constantly kept up your guard, you would never be able to interact with another person. Which would mean, you would miss out on the ultimate experience of love and sexual relationships. Making love is about being vulnerable. In a good experience, you stand naked and vulnerable in front of someone you can hopefully trust, and let yourself go completely, put aside your dignity and feel and react to what is happening. People who cannot completely let go and be vulnerable at this time miss out on an amazingly satisfying experience, of body, mind and heart.

Creativity comes from vulnerablity. You do not want to believe this. You want to feel that you are in control of the experience. Would it surprise you to know that you create nothing? The ego cannot create. It does, however, have a gift for interrupting creation. Creativity comes when you open your heart, and allow Spirit to work through your eyes, your hands, your voice, your body..........The gift that the truly creative people possess is the gift of being open to channel creative energy. The clearer the channel the more amazing the creation, but first the person must drop their defenses, and allow themselves to be vulnerable. This is the state in which you create. It is okay to protect your workspace and limit your interactions with others at this time. Do not allow your moments of creative vulnerability to leave you defenseless to those who prey on weakness. You may not control the experience, but you can control the conditions surrounding it. This is your right.

Many people who work in the field of spirituality, psychics, channelers, mediums and teachers, must allow themselves to be vulnerable in order to bring in clear guidance and information. Many psychics fail to protect themselves during these times. They walk around vulnerable and open to those who would prey upon them. Even the simple act of meditation can leave you vulnerable, but if you remember that you are in control of the experience, you can protect yourself, while still allowing yourself to be vulnerable enough to open to the message Spirit has for you and others. Many experienced psychics have people around them to watch them during this vulnerable time. This frees up the psychic to receive the highest level of guidance as they do not need to fear for their safety. Also experienced psychics know how to "turn off" the guidance they receive when they are tired or not in a place of safety.

One of the greatest gifts you can give yourself is to allow yourself moments of vulnerability. By letting down your defenses when you are in a safe place, you allow your gifts to come through clearly. You experience life more fully. You create with ease and love with your whole heart. The "V" word is not a dirty word, it is not a bad experience, if you use it correctly.

Jinnzania's side notes: I've loved to create for as long as I can remember. As child I would dance for hours, when I got older, I also found I could write poetry and stories. I never knew when one of these creative episodes would "hit" me, and there were often dry spells in between. It was an elusive spark that would quickly go out if it didn't "catch" it. I have learned that I am more in control of the experience than I originally thought I was. I have only to ask for something to come through and it will. As long as I don't try to control the experience and take over, what comes through is good.

I once heard a man describe poetry as a nasty little creature that had to be struggled with and defeated before a poem could be written. I could never write that way. If the struggle becomes too much then I know that ego has taken over and it's time to quit for the day, or write a different poem. Channeling creative energy feels easy and smooth for me. I always wonder, "why didn't I think of this sooner". But I know some people like to fight with the muse. Forgive me if I"d rather pour him a drink and have my way with him. I'm just like that :)